Sorry the title is not exactly correct , can't do umlauts-or more properly don't know how to do them on my computer, so there are no two little dots over spat like there should be.
Long day, appt with sleep doctor was a complete waste as was he, this was my first appt with him and the first thing he told me was that I needed to find a new doctor (duhh, that's what I thought he was) because he was leaving area--he pretty much either didn't answer any questions I had or acted like he didn't have any idea what I was talking about--hmmm, asked him about lucid dreaming and his response was "I think I have heard of that" and he is a sleep doctor? I always have tinnitis and when there is no other ambient noise (sounds), the tinnitis sounds louder and sometimes it even keeps me awake. Asked him about that and his suggestion was to get a white sound generator---duhh--as I told him that's what my tinnitis sounds like. I wonder if I got charged for his blank look. I just wish they had told me all this before I wasted my time seeing him. Only thing he wanted to do was to put me back on CPAP breathing machine which causes me to REM all night long and I wake up tireder (or is that more tired?) than when I went to bed. Then had about 4 hour nap this afternoon.
Highlight of day was argument with my editor/publisher over poem I had written---no, Shirley, if you are reading this, you know I am kidding--we had an e-mail discussion where she helped me out with my rhyme and meter on an out of control attempt at a sonnet. I hate trying to do anything other than freestyle--no, I also love haikus. I think that has something to do with my dyslexia--for some reason it is easy to do the three-line five syllable, seven syllable, five syllable and actually have something other than proving I can do 17 syllables of gibberish (usually). I do enjoy working with Shirley even if it's over e-mail. Again, a big plug for WordCatalystMagazine.com --at least check it out. Now is the point where I wonder if anyone actually reads these words. "Hello, hello, hello, is there anybody out there"--Pink Floyd-
Song for today/tonight is "Fragezeichen" a song by a beautiful German singer-Nena-my favorite German female singer--I do love Germany--lots of beautiful women there, too-and by the way, it means Question Mark. Nope, reason for this selection is gonna remain personal and is beyond scope of explanation tonight.
I'm tired-no sleeping machine tonight-I'll risk the sleep apnea--only gonna take about 1/2 meds- my act of defiance
what dreams tonight bring
I feel neither fear nor dread
Glimpses through the veil
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